Today has been a grey day. Not the weather, although that has been exceedingly grey too, but mentally today has been grey. I have that horrible, all too familiar, slightly uncomfortable, think there is something really important have forgotten to do but can't remember what it is, stomach-churning, eye-stinging, tear-welling, grey feeling. This sometimes hails the start, re-start, of depression. I have spent all day trying to rationalise it away. Today has not been a bad day. It has been a nice day. Me, Mr B and W together for a change with not too many jobs to do. So WHY am I ...